http://www.therecoverypodcast.com/recovery_topics/23 This is my perceptions of the wonderful and sometimes complex world of recovery. With the problem of alcoholism and addiction being treated in so many ways I simply express my views on these topics. Fri, 25 Jul 2008 02:57:21 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.2.2 http://www.therecoverypodcast.com/recovery_topics/23#comment-279 glenn Tue, 19 Feb 2008 05:48:31 +0000 http://www.therecoverypodcast.com/recovery_topics/23#comment-279 there were many aspects of this podcast that stuck with me and brought up a lot of thinking with me. i remember as a child having a young girl I was interested in told me, "don't worry, you can't help it if your ugly" thing is I believed her. through all the other disappointments, i felt that about myself already, unlike I guess a well adusted person who could just attribute a comment like that from such a person as thats their problem and F them. As I can see now, actually I was a fat kid, I was 13 and did turn out to be a fairly attractive person. I was never as bad as I was in my own view of myself. but as the years passed, and i experienced lifes events, often distorted drastically no doubt from my drug use and insanity. you keep getting shit on, I believed it. I saw later as I grew and found times of being well that I was never as bad as I thought I was. My perception is constanly distorted. when i was in recovery I daily though help of others(mostly sponsors) do my reality checks, and gratitude lists and knew what i thought at times was the fartthest from reality. but here I am again. ok, I like this podcast, i am suffering from addiction. it is funny though when you look at it, kind of comical in a way though not in any way intentional on my part. im just looking at how bruce looks at my posting. im a guy struggling, I am bad in my behavior but in real life I don't hurt people. not into that. im pretty good. so bruce has this fan who is fucked up but keeps listening, it is kind of funny, maybe not. g there were many aspects of this podcast that stuck with me and brought up a lot of thinking with me. i remember as a child having a young girl I was interested in told me, “don’t worry, you can’t help it if your ugly” thing is I believed her. through all the other disappointments, i felt that about myself already, unlike I guess a well adusted person who could just attribute a comment like that from such a person as thats their problem and F them. As I can see now, actually I was a fat kid, I was 13 and did turn out to be a fairly attractive person. I was never as bad as I was in my own view of myself. but as the years passed, and i experienced lifes events, often distorted drastically no doubt from my drug use and insanity. you keep getting shit on, I believed it. I saw later as I grew and found times of being well that I was never as bad as I thought I was. My perception is constanly distorted. when i was in recovery I daily though help of others(mostly sponsors) do my reality checks, and gratitude lists and knew what i thought at times was the fartthest from reality.
but here I am again.
ok, I like this podcast, i am suffering from addiction. it is funny though when you look at it, kind of comical in a way though not in any way intentional on my part. im just looking at how bruce looks at my posting. im a guy struggling, I am bad in my behavior but in real life I don’t hurt people. not into that. im pretty good. so bruce has this fan who is fucked up but keeps listening,
it is kind of funny, maybe not.
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